Updates...

Life got ahold of me the past couple of weeks, so I haven't been on to update (sorry) I know this blog is the highlight of everyone's day..haha! Ok. So time to catch you up. I'm going to start with the bad first. 3 weeks ago I started "spotting". It started on a Saturday, so of course the doctor's office was closed, but I was able to talk to the doctor on call. She put me on light bed rest for the weekend & told me that my doctor would see me on Monday for an ultrasound. I was frantic, but she made me feel a lot more confident when she said this happens a lot & could be nothing. Also, that it was very rare to see a miscarriage at 8 weeks. So Monday comes along. (It was a very looooong weekend) I had my ultrasound. I knew it wasn't good when Dr. Salinas turned off the TV monitor & turned the machine away from me. He printed a picture out. There was a sac. There was a hint of a baby. However, there was something else that looked like another "baby" in the sac. Which I was told was a blood clot. I've never have ever heard of a blood clot being a good thing. Dr. Salinas was telling me that the baby was too small to see the heart beat, so he wanted me to go straight to Waterloo & get blood work taken. The drive from South County to Waterloo I just kept thinking to myself why it was that he couldn't see a heart beat. At this time I was 8 weeks. When I had my first ultrasound with Luke I was 7 weeks and could visibly see his little peanut self & a flicker of the heart beat. So, I had the blood work taken. Then went back on Wednesday for more. He said if my levels doubled the baby was fine, if they dropped I was miscarrying, and if the levels stayed the same he was worried about me. 2 out of the 3 were bad news. He said that he would let me know the results Friday. Talk about putting your life on the line. So therefore, I was on complete bed rest the rest of the week. Talk about torture. I wasn't even allowed to hold Luke, which killed me :( Wednesday night the worst I could possibly imagine happened.I do not want to go into detail, for your sake & my heartache. But I knew we had lost our miracle. Friday morning came & Dr. Salinas confirmed that I had infact miscarried. There was a sense of relief because the "not knowing" was the worst feeling ever. I have had time to heal physically. The pain is gone and I'm finally starting to feel "myself" again. I have no idea why this happened to us. Dr. Salinas said that it was a freak of nature and that there was nothing I could do to prevent it from happening. I just keep reminding myself that I already have a precious baby boy that I am so grateful for. And that Everything happens for a Reason. Lukey will be a big brother whenever God knows the time is right. As for now, we will embrace every single moment we have alone with LB.

Chicago. Matt, Mom, Bubba, Luke, & I headed up 2 weeks ago. M&M had a wedding & we were just along for the ride. I did not get to see Oprah, which broke my heart. We spent a lot of time in the hotel room & in the car. It was nice to get away for awhile though. Luke did a great job for his first little mini vacation. We sure did miss Daddy though!! I would show you pictures BUT Luke Matthew got ahold of Mommy's camera & deleted allllll the pictures. "Don't sweat the samll stuff Sarah" :S:S

Besides that, I can't really think of anything worth putting on here. Very eventful life I do live.... jeeze louise!!