Mama Drama

hey loves.

it's been a long couple weeks.

dad is still working an obscene amount of hours.

which is good for the bank account.

but not for my sanity our family.

i honestly feel like i'm alone.

and i'm married?

at least if we were divorced,

i would get every other weekend off.

sad. but true?

the boys have been.

well boys.

logan had 12 teeth come in over the past couple weeks.

he is into e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.

he decided walking isn't the cool thing to do anymore

so now he tries to run.

which doesn't work so well

when you haven't even mastered walking to the fullest extent.

between him & hooch
you would think the trash can is the coolest toy ever invented.

luke has been mr bipolar.

one minute he is a monster and then the next he is sweet as can be.
we had a little regression with pt.
but now we are back on track.
except the whole not shutting the door when we tinkle.
so our little brother doesn't find the big bowl of water to play in...

they are both attached to my hips.
or rather....
logan is attached to my hip.
luke is attached to my back.
and liam is attached to my uterus.

i've been on edge lately.

my eye has been twitching.

i cry at the stress.

i laugh at the insanity.

i feel guilty.

i feel blessed.

i feel strong at times and weak at others.

let me be frank.

i'm freaking the f out of the reality of having 3 children.

the other day i saw a very naive girl's fb status 

that sent me over the edge.

'i wish i could get paid to be a sahm,

so i could sit on pinterest all day &

make a new recipe every night for my bd &

my laundry would be caught up &

my house would be clean'

i'm paraphrasing of course.

and trying to be nice.

granted. 

this is a nice thought.

and if you are anything like my husband

who thinks sahms lay on the couch everyday

watching soaps & sipping lemonade.

you would be stupid enough to believe this.

not that i'm calling my husband stupid...

maybe i should of used a word like ignorant.

but do you think he has ever cleaned a toilet or

gone grocery shopping in 5 years?

NO.

that porcelain white toilet cleans itself.

and food just magically appears in the fridge.

i have a lot of negative energy that i need to get out of my system.

or a baby to get out of my belly.

whichever.

i love being a mom.

i really truly do.

and the unconditional love i have for my boys

cannot even be explained in words.

but lawdy.

i can't wait for my first margarita.

these boys are just like their father.

no matter how far they push me.

they give me that smile.

and i forget why i was pulling my hair out in the first place.

3 and 1/2 boys have me at their finger tips.

and boy oh boy do they take advantage of my weakness.

them :)

taping to my fridge.

because it's ok to be reminded.

whether you need that reminder once a day.

or 12x a day.