I confess that I am really mad at myself for volunteering to work a double today.
I confess that I skipped class for the first time yesterday just for the pure fact that I wanted to hang out with LB.
I confess that I haven't actually 'looked' at myself in the mirror in two days. Now I'm almost afraid too...
I confess that I have been such a whiny baby all week. But jeeze louise!!!! This baby gets in such odd positions & I am soooo uncomfortable!!
I confess that it took everything in me to not freak out on a classmate the other day. She was eating chips. Between the sound and the smell I thought I was literally going to lose it.
I confess that I am going to go get a pedi in the morning while my husband thinks I am just running to the store to get groceries for Easter.
I confess that I am uber excited for the Royal Wedding a week from today!!!!!!!
BIG Confession....
I confess that Luke is not baptized. We weren't married when he was born...so I put it off. Well now he is two. So I decided that we would just get him & the baby baptized at the same time. I feel ackward and embarressed about the whole situation and I'm not sure why. I have never been crazy about 'organized religion'. I don't think that you HAVE to go to church to be spiritual. And I defintely don't believe that going to church automatically makes you a good person. I know quite a few people who go to church every single Sunday & then sin like nobodies business during the week. What is up with that? I know no one is perfect and everyone 'sins' but don't be a hyprocrite. And please don't judge me because I don't go to church. I am spiritual and have an open heart without going. So last Sunday we went to church for the first time. It was nice, peaceful, and ackward. I don't know why it makes me feel so uncomfortable. Maybe I just feel like an outsider. Or maybe it goes back to when my dad passed. I think my mom thought if we went to church & Sunday school every week we would somehow miraclously be cured of our heartache. While for some that might work, it didn't for me. My mind was in a bad state and that was the last place I felt like I needed to be. Maybe I just haven't found the right church for me. I want to feel welcomed, comfortable, happy. I am highly considering church hopping until I find THE one for our family. Getting my husband to church Sunday was an 'act of God' literally. And if didn't so happen to be Easter this Sunday, I highly doubt I would get him to go again. So. If anyone needs a church buddy or knows of a welcoming church let me know!! I want to believe in something beyond myself and have a place to turn to. Even if I don't get that by going to church at least I am getting an hour of pure positive energy a week in my life, right?
3 comments:
Oh girl, you know you're family is welcome to visit our church any time. You can sit with me and Eric in the back, haha. There are LOTS of young families, and we're all friends who hang out both in and out of church. It's fun. :)
I confess that neither of our girls are baptized. But that's because we don't baptize babies, haha. Only children and adults who understand what's going on and make the choice for themselves. :)
I love how honest you always are with your confessions. Keep your chin up! Love ya, girly.
You can get Luke baptized at a private service also. It is nothing that you need to do in front of an entire congregation. It is a special moment for your family.
We aren't good about attending church every sunday. I don't think that makes you a better person and people who act like that are definitely going for the wrong reasons. As long as you have your faith and are true to it!
Adrien! That makes sooo much sense! I am defintely going to take you up on that offer. What time/day is your service?
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