Song of the week

Hmmm, Mondays. Nothing ever good comes out of Mondays. FOUR more days until your weekend starts, DiCarlo's is closed. Why not have a song of the week? I think I will. It might be a song I just LOVE, a song that is going to sum up my week, a song that will get me through the rest of the week. Eh, I don't know. This might be just goofy & a waste of time but whatev. But seriously, I'm not a poet. And certain songs explain exactly how you are feeling. And they make you feel good. Don't you ever get in your car in the morning & a GREAT song comes on and just puts you in a good mood the rest of the day? Or you hear a song that takes you back to a great memory? Or makes you think of someone you love, well or don't love. And who better to write in words what I'm feeling this week than my girl T.Swift herself! I've been an emotional basket case lately. Thinking about my future. Our future as a family. And I want to put it all on pause. I'm not about to say "I'm ready not to be pregnant anymore." Even though, this pregnancy has been anything but easy peasy. I still love it. I love my time with Lukey as an only child. I love that his eyes light up when I walk in the room. I love that I am the center of his world. I'm terrified for him to grow up. Not that I want to be a freaky kind of mom who wants their kids to live with them in their 40's. I know I will love watching him become his own unique person but the innocence. At a certain age it is gone. I will teach him to know there is more good than evil in this world. But it is going to be more difficult once the innocence is gone. I know I can't make time stop, but I'm going to soak up every single minute of this precious short time <3

Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift

Your little hands wrapped around my finger

And it's so quiet in the world tonight

Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming

So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny

You got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have, honey

If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

Just stay this little

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you

Won't let no one break your heart

No, no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up, never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies

And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off

At 14, there's just so much you can't do

And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots

But don't make her drop you off around the block

Remember that she's getting older, too
And don't lose the way that you dance around

In your PJs getting ready for school

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

Just stay this little

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple

No one's ever burned you

Nothing's ever left you scarred

And even though you want to

Just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room

Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home

Remember the footsteps, remember the words said

And all your little brother's favorite songs

I just realized everything I have
Is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment

In a big city, they just dropped me off

It's so much colder than I thought it would be

So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up

I wish I'd never grown up

Oh, I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up

Could still be little

Oh, I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up

It could still be simple

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

Just stay this little

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

It could stay this simple

Won't let nobody hurt you

Won't let no one break your heart

And even through to you want to

Please try to never grow up

Don't you ever grow up

(Never grow up)

Just never grow up