I've seen heartache

You know that feeling you get...

when you get off a roller coaster.

It's that warm tingling rush that takes over your whole body

yet you feel a little nausea at the same time.

That. Is how I woke up feeling this morning.

I had a dream.

A wonderful dream.

A much needed dream.

An unexpected dream.

But when I woke up,

I knew that dream would never come true.

Like really, never ever ever.

And it brings back the pain.

And heartache.

Yet, made me feel more at ease.

And maybe. Just maybe.

Things that went unsaid...

Are now said.

Let me tell ya something...

And I know you have heard it before.

But from my observance of human beings, 

no one is really listening.

If you love someone.

Tell them.

Hug them.

Kiss them.

Make SURE they know how much they mean to you.

Every.Single.Freakin.Day.

Because you really never know when you might not get that chance again.

I promise you.

I never thought it could happen to me.

And it did.

Three times.

And all three times...

They were unexpected.

Out of no where.

Three people who I loved dearly.

Who I couldn't imagine my life without.

Are gone.

I will never be able to tell them again...

How much I love them.

I will never be able to...

Hug them again.

I will never be able to...

Kiss them again.

And only God knows how much they mean to me.

Dad. Richard. Shane.

I love you.

I want to hug you.

I want to kiss you.

You mean the world to me.

And there isn't a single day that goes by

That my heart doesn't ache for you.

If heaven wasn't so far away...

You bet your ass 

I'd pack up the kids and go for the day!